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Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
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7:59 pm - eh
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they say the bible
has so many idols
they cant sing
for you and me
they think they know
whats theres to hope
please dont believe
that we can concieve
im not adam
but i know tragedy
ive performed surgery
to the ones from broken homes
who sleep by silent phones
listen to what im not sayin
get on your knees and start prayin
i need a pill
that will give me some thrills
cause im swear that im dying
swear youre not lying?
hope me some luck
that ill give a fuck
about you and me
and everything we see
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| Monday, October 1st, 2007
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4:18 pm
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failing features
holy scriptures
take some pictures
fate fucked hard
oversized crown
hearts broken down
fuck this town
fucked fate hard
plucked feathers
desperate measures
unwanted treasures
hard fucked fate
vomit in drain
heads in pain
what a fucking shame
yea, fuck fate.
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| Wednesday, September 19th, 2007
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9:46 am - insignificant importance
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late night fight
fuck fest breasts
cum stained sheets
half awake in heat
last content attempt
let reject affect
can you hear the sound
of hearts breaking down?
mend dead ends
meth death beds
in the void of misery
in love with bad history
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| Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
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5:20 pm - pluck my feathers why dont you?
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hot piss. by some girls.
fangs on flesh sink in soft skin
throw your soul into the volcano
where lava once erupts in young stomachs
now molten in the skull
follow me
swallow me down
i dont coma anymore
i map my way around the mattressed floor
angels of the underworld at night
we dine
your teeth will grind into mine
just keep me out of the sun
you call me scum like im the only one
end.
so, im at school, bored. when you start to become, as they call it, responsible, life becomes extremely boring and plain. i dont like plain yogurt, or even plain cheeseburgers... then why am i living so plainly? i literally can't wait until may so i can see my friends and take tiffany to disney for her birthday.
i really hate talking to people who think they know what they're talking about. it makes me akward wading in their stupidity and having to indulge their ugly faces with their crooked coffee stained teeth. i really want to give them a good kick in the face but my mom raised me to not hit people who are handicap.
you know what i have been hearing a lot recently. a lot about abortion. touchy subject.
is it morally wrong? of course.
is it a good move? sometimes.
i personally feel women have the right to make choices of their bodies for themselves. i mean, i wouldnt want them to have control over having me nuetured. i strongly believe abortion shouldnt be the new birth control, especially girls who have it constantly done, meaning they didnt learn from the last abortion and can't figure out how to say, "do you have a condom?" the only time i think a guy should have a choice, is a man who is the father, and wants to have the kid and willing to pay support, rare when this happens, but i feel he shouldnt have something stripped from him that is in fact part of him. if anything, i think all in all because of the majority of men not paying child support, women should have the choice.
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and pot should be legalized. alchol has much worse attributes than pot, im not going into details, so look up shit.
and i think i should be president of the zack morris club. done and done.
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| Monday, February 6th, 2006
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5:59 pm
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do the world a favor: fill it out and post it for all your friends....
Answer all the questions honestly
Time started:
559
First Name:
nicholas
Single or Taken:
taken
Sex:
heman
Birthday:
december 12, 1985
Siblings:
benjamin, brother
Hair color:
brown
Shoe size:
8.5
height:
5'7
Innie or Outie:
innie.
What are you wearing right now:
some sweet gray work pants.
Righty or lefty:
right.
Can you make a dollar in change right now:
no.
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Relationships
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Who are your closest friends:
taylor, riley, kyle, nick myer, and tiffany i guess.
Do you have a BF or GF?
yes.
Best place to go for a date:
somewhere quiet and nice so she can listen to me talk about me.
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Favorites...
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Favorite place to shop:
threeoneg.com, american app.
Favorite kind of pants:
sevens, and levi's.
Favorite colors:
purple, gray, and jew.
Number(s):
4
Animal:
kiwi, quail, or a dog.
Drink:
water or milk.
Sport(s):
futbol.
Fast-Food Place:
too many to just have one. im fat.
Month:
december, because my parents buy me cool stuff.
Movie:
gummo, bumfights, or tommy boy.
Juice:
orange, or cranberry.
Finger:
the one i use to finger little kids.
Breakfast:
green eggs and adderoll.
Favorite cartoon character(s):
meatball.
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Have you ever
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Given anyone a bath:
yes, taylor.
Smoked:
yes.
Bungee:
no.
Made yourself throw-up:
whenever i want to lose wait... when i drink too much.
Gone skinny dipping:
yes.
Eaten a hot dog:
if youre talking about a penis... then fuck yes.
Put your tongue on a frozen pole:
nope.
Loved someone so much it made you cry?
sometimes, when i really think about me and how amazing i am, i teer up.
Played truth or dare:
yes.
Been in a police car:
3 times. woo!
Been on a plane:
yes.
Been in a sauna:
yes.
been in a hot tub:
yes.
swam in the ocean:
yes.
Fallen asleep in school:
its why i failed spanish.
Ran away?:
no.
Broken someone's heart:
yes, you stupids. thinking i liked you, haha.
Cried when someone died:
no.
Cried in school:
when taylor wouldn't go to prom with me.
Fallen off your chair:
no.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?
when i was part of the nsync club, at nine o'clock they would call my phone to say goodnight, even though it was an automated message, i knew they meant it.
Saved e-mails:
no.
Fallen for one of your best friends?:
no.
Made out with JUST a friend?:
most of them.
Used someone:
yes. if you know who you are... this is for you...
stupid. haha.
Been cheated on?:
yes.
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What is...
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Your good luck charm:
nothing.
Best song you ever heard:
livejournal, like anyone could ever know that.
Stupidest thing you have ever done:
broke into a vet, inhaled cleaning products, fought my dad, and left my hamster outside.
What's your room like?:
simple, and boring.
Last thing you said:
i can't remember, but i passed gas not too long ago.
What is beside you:
not my friends.
Last thing you ate:
cereal.
Best thing that has happened to you this year:
my life sucks now in the friends aspect, so mostly tiffany making me happy even though i dont have friends. weird, i thought i would eventually kill myself.
Worst thing that has happened to you this year:
i beat tiffany. haha, now when she see's this she'll be mad because people will think im half joking... BECAUSE I AM. game boy.
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Have you had..
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Chicken pox:
yes.
Sore Throat:
yes.
Stitches:
no.
Broken nose:
3 times.
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Do You
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Believe in love at first sight:
eh. maybe humpable.
Like picnics:
no.
Like school:
yes.
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Would you/what is
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Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000 dollars:
i'd do it for less, those fuckers.
If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with you?
black midgets. like ten of them.
Who was the last person that called you:
dad.
Who was the last person you slow danced with:
tiffany.
What makes you laugh the most?:
i haven't laughed much recently. game boy.
What makes you smile?
tiffany.
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Who is the last person
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You yelled at:
stitch.
Who broke your heart:
fountain valley.
Who told you they loved you:
tiffany.
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Do you/Are You:
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Do you like filling these out?
im totally intrigued.
Do you wear glasses or contacts:
im not a faggot.
Do you like yourself:
i love me. its because im really really good looking.
Stolen anything over $50:
yes.
Obsessive?:
sometimes.
Compulsive?:
my downfall.
Anorexic?:
yes.
Suicidal?:
no.
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Love Life
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Do you have a crush?
yes.
If so, do they know?
yes.
Have you truly told them how you feel, face to face?
you know it.
How did they respond?
we humped a few times before hitting the hay.
What is so great about them?:
everything.
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This or That
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Coffee, tea:
niether.
Phone or in person:
person.
Are you oldest, middle, youngest or only child
oldest.
Indoor or outdoor:
both.
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Final questions
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What are you listening to right now?:
owen hart.
What did you do yesterday:
work, drink, and watch the superbowl.
Where do you want to get married?
some place where its all about me.
if you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?
i would have built-in internet in my head, and screens in the back of my eye lids.
Are you a good driver?
no.
Are you a good Singer:
im actually starting an r and b group.
What do you dream about:
mostly stupid stuff. the scary ones are when someone is talking to me and they start slurring thier words and shaking thier heads in all directions and moving thier mouths as fast as thier heads(by now they are going really really fast). another scary dream for me is either really big metal balls, and really small ones filled in a room with me in the niddle grinding together. ah...
End Time:
62four.
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| Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
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6:18 pm - i duddits.
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hi.
its been a while "lj" friends. you guys know how i really feel.
... well most of you are my friends anyways. so, im sitting here waiting for class, feeling a little horny and off beat because i didnt sleep last night. i pretty much love school, im working my way up to becoming an accountant, and so far its fun. for those of you who know me best, i love math, so this class is perfect for me. just like gay sex is perfect for me...
so today, i bought some 4 dollar mechanical pencils, adn they came with a 5 dollar rebate. how cool... i pretty much stole them. i don't steal often anymore, i think that's what has been missing. not fouintain valley, but stealing. i love stealing. i think i have stolen easily $3,257. 98 worth of crap.
but im going to go shit or just sit on the toilet and read some archie magz.
how come everyone says they are going to visit me but no one comes. you fucking fuckers, im waiting by the door for you.
current mood: constipated
current music: coachwhips
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| Monday, November 7th, 2005
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4:24 am - fountain valley thanksgiving.
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| Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
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5:58 pm - get out, LEAVE! right now, NOW! its the end of you and me.
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SECTION 1 [ YOU ]
your name: nicholas
your gender: boy
age: 19
height: 5'6" maybe 5'7"
hair color: brown
eye color: hazel
your location: tempe, gayzona <-- funny.
fears: belgium prostitutes, long story.
SECTION 2 [ HAVE YOU EVER ]
peed your pants? sometimes i do it on purpose.
cheated on someone? no
fallen off the bed? yes
fallen for a relative? no
had plastic surgery? no
broke someone`s heart? yes
had your heart broken? yes
had a dream come true? yes
done something you regret? yes
cheated on a test? yes
broken a body part? yes
SECTION 3 [ DO YOU ]
brush your teeth? like more than 3 times.
like anybody? tiffany
have any piercings? no
drive? i get driven.
believe in Santa Claus? no
ever get off the computer? yes
SECTION 4 [ FRIENDS ]
who is your best? taylor, sometimes nick bennett and riley.
who is the loudest? nick myer
who is the shyest? kyle olson
who is the cutest? this guy named nick roberts, oh, and tiffany.
who laughs the most? riley
who have you known the longest? kyle olson
who have you known the shortest? steve "g-uHOT"
do you belong to a crew? pretty people?
do you hang out with the opposite sex? yes
do you consider yourself POPULAR? is this a joke? is ron burgundy the balls?
do you trust your friends? sort of.
are you a good friend? the best!!!...
can you keep a secret? if its someone i like.
SECTION 5 [ THE LAST PERSON YOU ]
hugged: tiffany.
talked to on the phone: tiffany.
fell in love with: tiffany, still in love too. woo.
turned down: tiffany's salad tossing.
SECTION 6 [ PERSONAL ]
What do you want to be when you grow up? architect or engineer.
What was the worst day of your life? when i shit my pants.
What is your most embarrassing story? when i peed in my eye.
What has been the best day of your life? when tiffany said i love you, i know its cute.
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? girlfriend
What do you usually think about before you go to bed? how i can get tiffany to give me head. or my little brother.
SECTION 7 [ FAVORITE ]
Movie: julian donkey boy
Song: postmark my compass by american nightmare. or, disorder by joy division.
Store: where is easiest to shoplift.
Ice Cream Flavor: caramel with some sort of nut in it.
Candy: watchamacallit, or nerd ropes.
Holiday: my birthday.
SECTION 8 [ DO YOU ]
Like to give hugs? not really.
Like to walk in the rain? yes
Sleep with or without clothes on? just shorts.
Dress up on Halloween? sometimes.
Have a job? yes
Sleep on your side, tummy or back? stomach
Think you're attractive? im the diggity.
Want to marry? yes... TIFFANY! what?
Have a goldfish? i have two back in california.
SECTION 9 [ WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT ]
Abortion: in between
Bill Clinton: mother fuckin P-I-M-P.
Eating Disorders: losers
Suicide: stupid decision.
Summer: dope.
Tattoos: depends.
Piercing: depends.
Make-up: depends.
Drinking: dope.
Guys: friends?
Girls: two kinds, tiffany and the others. im so smooth its just not right.
SECTION 10 [ THIS OR THAT ]
Pierced nose or tongue? nose
Single or taken? taken
Tongue or belly button ring? belly button ring
Chocolate or flowers? flowers
Sunrise or sunset? sunset
M&M's or Skittles? skittles
Stay up late or sleep in? stay up late, then sleep in.
Hot or cold? cold
Taller members of the opposite sex or shorter? shorter
Vanilla or chocolate? vanilla
Kids or no kids? kids
Cat or dog? doggy
Half-empty or Half-full? half full
Newspaper or Magazine? depends
Spring or Fall? fall
Rain or snow? snow
A year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? lifetime friendship with benefits.
Happy or sad? happy
Mexican or Italian food? italian
Duct tape or scotch tape? duct tape
Candy or soda? candy
SECTION 11 [ OTHER QUESTIONS ]
Do you go to church? unfortunately no.
Do you like church? yes and no.
Why or why not? i like it because i can worship god, but i dont because i dont like that they try to change me.
Out of all of your friends, who has the coolest house? between nick myer and taylor.
When you look at a person with lime green tights on, what's the first thing that comes to your head? what a faggot, i want to get all up on that grill.
current mood: other.
current music: Holy Molar
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| Friday, August 26th, 2005
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12:20 am
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so im moving saturday.
oddly enough, im not sad.
i get to be with tiffanygaylordpretty.
come say bye to me. ill miss you just like i miss pounding nick myer's moms ass.
peace.
current music: holy MOLAR
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| Thursday, August 4th, 2005
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3:02 am - fuck.
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so, this girl i really wanted to be friends with pretty much forever, threatens to kill me now. i really dont know what i did. was it because i found a girl that makes me feel more happy than i have ever felt in a relationship and my life in general?
i dont feel shitty because im afraid, i feel shitty because i cant believe i made her feel so hateful towards me she actually wants to end my life. thats "deep".
this sucks so much right now, i lost a friend, i cant be with tiffany. ahh. the only good part is my friends, who are always there for me. one in particular is taylor. no matter what, he has been there. he will allways have a place in my heart.
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yea, so i miss tiffany a lot, the usual. i cant wait to be with her like all the time, you know, "doing it", and when i say "doing it," i mean holding her hand, watching some movie i have seen with her before, but it being more special than it was before. i love you tiffany.
nick
current mood: ...
current music: burzum
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| Saturday, July 30th, 2005
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2:02 am - sleep?
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i dont sleep much anymore, im not a tweeker. fuck those dirty fuckers.
i enjoy my nights talking to tiffany, which is amazing.
its weird, i trust her more than anyone, and she isnt with me and it fucking sucks.
anyways, i didnt go out tonight. it sucks, and its really boring. i miss taylor, i want to kick it with him. why? he is my best friend. one of my lifetime friends.
lifetime friends: taylor, nick myer, nick bennett, and kind of riley, riley has been a dick lately and pretty flakey, i love him though so it hurts that much more. i hope it changes.
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yes, school starts, woo, college...
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TIFFANY WHERE ARE YOU?
current mood: chill
current music: Out Hud
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| Friday, July 8th, 2005
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9:27 pm
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so, life is cool.
i have a girlfriend now, well not recently but kind of not what? ... anyways, she is the most amazing human being i have ever known. she is beautiful on the inside and the out, she is everything i want in a girl. ha, cool thing is she started falling for me when i was wasted.
the story:
i came to a party with nick bennett pretty drunk. it started off a good night too, i became friends with riley again, and i really care about him, anyways, i went outside and drank more. jillian came out, who right now im in a fight with and she HATES me, haha, yea and i had no where to sleep that night so jillian was nice enough to let nick bennett and me spend the night. she brought her friends out for us to meet, and i saw tiffany. she had a alkaline trio sweatshirt, jeans (i still think they were pajama bottoms) and her hair was wavy that night. as soon as i saw her i puy my arm around her, haha how creepy of me.
so we go back to the hotel, and nick bennett and i are fucking wasted. i threatened her friend johnny a few times that i would fight him, but im a nice guy so let him go. i came close to thowing up a few times, and tiffany stood with me for a bit while i said about 57398 times, "all i need to do is spit and i wont throw up." then we went inside, and i ALL MOST didnt stay because they had whiskey and wouldnt give us any, so we planned out how we would steal their whiskey and walk home.
that eventually didnt happen, and a bit after the planning i walked over to tiffanys bed and layed in bed and put my arm around her. why? because she is a ::*::H@WTI3::*:: yea so i tried kissing her a few times, and she freakin rejected me. psh, she said, "i dont kiss drunk boys." so, i said i wasnt going to kiss her, and i eskimo kissed her, and she totally fell for me and kissed me the whole night.
the morning after i woke up to her filming me, and she called me fat the next morning, WaTeVz. but i did kiss her one last time. then she messaged me on myspace and here we are now. totally in love, head over heels for each other.
i really want to spend the rest of my life with her through the shitty and cool(cant think of better word).
the end.
so, pretty much, i love tiffany more than anything in this shitty world filled with shitty people. she makes it worth getting up in the morning and looking foward to the day.
i love you tiffany.
current mood: perfect
current music: whirlwind heat
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| Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
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9:47 am - i aint no werk azz trick
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i think i broke my hand, which sucks because i need to write with it. at least its not my left hand because i you know what with that hand. why do i use the left hand? because i broke my right wrist a long time ago and got used to of using my left hand because of the right hand being in a cast for 6 months and all.
anyways, this weekend fm bats are playing. i didnt get to see them this past weekend, so im going to go no matter what this weekend.
i think i failed one of my classes, college 100, which i dont really care because all most everything said in that class contradicted many other things said in that class. i just want to take math, because math is stupid cool. and someone as fly and as dope as me WOULD enjoy something like that.
i need new shoes, i think i want the same ones. NIKES.
current mood: ...
current music: some girls
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| Thursday, May 19th, 2005
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1:09 pm - no subject
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last night i went to see das oath and melt banana.
they were cool. i got really stoned before i went in though, and that was a good idea because almost the whole time i didnt know what was going on. and half way into the show we went back to the car to drink wine, and then we smoked some more pot.
i want to go rollerblading. i havent done that in a while, just like i havent had sex with taylor's mom for a while. oh snaps.
summer is pretty much here. i hate summer. its too hot, i want to go to alaska for the summer and go ice fishing and live off the fat of the land. kind of like chris mccandles from that book "into the wild." yea he died, but he seemed like he had fun before.
my jeans have a hole in them... again. but i fixed them up. they were pretty bad too because i didnt know but i was talking to my friends mom and when i turned around she told me she could see my testicles. boy, was i ever embarrassed.
word to your gi'na.
current mood: ...
current music: arab on radar
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| Monday, May 16th, 2005
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12:08 pm
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so today i tried to fix my jeans because they have a huge whole in them, and pretty much i worked on them for nothing. the first time i dropped something and went to pick it up, my you know what fell out of the whole and was exposed to the teacher and some students.
i have a few friends on this journal thingy, and i have come to see that people are big babies these days. im not saying i never get sad or hurt by anything, but some of these people are stupid.
today at school, this kid had a shirt on that said emo killer. and he told me he didnt like me because im emo...
so i told him:
"you must not be the typical 'bro' that stereo types every kid with long hair as an 'emo' and goes around in his 6'foot lifted truck yelling at kids walking while headed to the 'southside' of the pier to catch those 'offshore' southwest swells and then meeting the guys at wahoos before 'hitting up' the ruca warehouse sale."
after that he looked at me through his Von Zipper sun glasses and just went back to his desk. he ended up being my partner in class later on and that was pretty awkward.
lately, fountain valley has a lot of these hipster kids everywhere. i hate them. makes me want to shave my head and wear fubu jeans so they cant i.m. me and tell me the things we have in common thinking it will make me thier friend.
so international noise conspiracy is pretty much the best band ever.
xoxo
nick
current mood: ...
current music: virgin mega whore
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